Too much time so little to do

I have realized that my ambition to start a blog has slowly declined much like my motivation for everything else I had planned to do. While I was home in Iowa a made a mental commitment to write (creative and journal), to start a solid schedule, and structured eating habits. This has all gone down hill since being back in the city. I sit and stare at my computer or pace my apartment, motivated but still needing that extra push to actually do something with my time. Too much freedom is making my life dull. This is my schedule for today:

Yoga @ 1:05 (didn’t go…woke up at 12:50)

Work on DebbiesIdea website (did a little bit of work but distracted)

Creative writing/blog (well obviously I am doing that..but not whole hearted)

Go to film cantor on sex toys @ 6:30 (will probably space going or find something else to do, like hit the gym)

I believe most people would love to have a day like this…no actual schedule to go by, free time. But honestly for those of you who are working you should not be envious. It is a lot easier to get things done when you have little free time. I have all the time in the world so I procrastinate to do nothing. My head is filled with nothing and my life in filled with nothing. I would love to wake up at 7am and spend my day working hard towards a goal, towards a pay day. I want to spend my 24 hours busy, tired and feet pulsing by bedtime. The saying is too little time so much to do but I am opposite. Too much time so little to do. This is a very frustrating time in my life. I need to be busy. Grrrrrrrr. I can’t even creative write because I am too lazy to think.

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